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I am soooo glad our God is so big. Because honestly, I have so many issues and problems and things that happen in life that I would be out of luck with on my own. And I don't even have to worry about being an attention hog, because it's not like I have to worry about taking up all of God's time. He's never like-Hey, Kimber, I know you've got a lot on your mind, but, I'm kinda booked tonight and I have an early morning..sooo...could you just give me the highlights? NO. Thank goodness gracious gravy. And I just can't get over that he's never too busy for all the junk, or even all the great stuff that's happening. I love that he loves to hear about all that too. Like how I got a call from the yearbook today or how I didn't have to sit alone at lunch. I'm sure you're laughing now, but I will tell you what those things are big deals. Then there's the slightly bigger stuff-the stuff that isn't so great. Like how I hate awkward situations and wish the world would just be rid of them straight away. Or how I sometimes just want to steal a few select people and take them away to a secret place where I can completely monopolize their time and attention. Selfish? Maybe. Honest? Yes. And then, after all that, there's the real life-big deal-no joke-kinda makes you sick inside- kinda stuff. Like how someone you really care about gets hurt really really bad by someone they really cared about and you just want to bash that person's face in but you know that wouldn't actually help your friend be less eternally scarred. Or how you know that someone just needs a good friend, someone to talk to, but you aren't in the same city as them. Or how someone who isn't supposed to die is taken from the people that really need them. And what do you do when all that is just pressing, pressing down on you like a huge bag of junk that no one wants-like empty pizza boxes and broken toys. It sucks. There's no simpler way to put it. And I just honestly don't know what people do when they don't have Jesus to talk to. I know that could sound cheesy but I honestly wonder it. Like, I grew up in the church. I grew up learning that when you had a problem or something you needed to get out, even if no one else in the world was there, there was one who was. And you didn't even have to call him or see if he's busy or if he wants to hang out. You just talk. Now that's the ultimate form of communication. And that's why God always trumps people and their man-made communication devices. Because no matter how freaky insane technology gets, it will never get as close as God does. Why? Because when it's person to person, there's always someone on the other end who can say no. Someone who can say I'm busy or I can't talk or just doesn't answer at all. But not so with our God! And it just makes me wanna scream because when I'm at that point when I'm so overwhelmed by nerves or unsureness(word?) or doubt or sadness or happiness or whatever(!), it's just like a no brainer. Of course he's going to listen. And that's wonderfully reassuring. And I don't really know how but I just want people to get that. To know what it's like to have that friend-in the truest definition-connotation and denotation-that is so always and completely ok with you pouring out your heart and your mind and just whatever is troubling you or whatever you're thinking about. God just loves to talk to us, just like I love to talk to my friends, but on an even more extreme level. Like, I know that my friends get to a point when they get tired of listening-hey, I'm guilty as charged too! And that's because we're not perfect, which includes not being perfect listeners. But God...(which is such a wonderful phrase and so applicable for all kinds of situations and scenarios)..he is the perfect listener. Which is what everyone wants right? Well, at least every girl..and a lot of guys I think, even if they don't admit it.

So that's it, that's what's on my mind. How much God loves us and how wonderful it is that he is there. always. always. always.